Where Opposition Meets Humiliation

2009-12-07T12:13:00.001+08:00

hello all ive moved to www.syazzology.tumblr.com

Yeah I do miss you...

2009-10-06T20:10:00.002+08:00

Hmm...its weird to be blogging at the library but yeah..I just felt like it...saw her just now at Lot 1...and it sucked..nothing that she did of course but I kind of realised that no matter what I say...deep down I do miss her alot...ah well sure we had the odd conflicts and stuff but still..I feel rather hypocritical to be holding this in when I preach the virtue of forgiving and forgetting..I do miss the train rides to school...the MSN conversations that lasted for hours, late into the night...I miss the webcam sessions and most of all I miss you...it takes alot to get me tearing up but buddy I'm sorry for the harsh words I've said..I apologise for the cynical attitude I've shown you and I'm sorry it all came down to this... :(

2009-09-03T16:56:00.000+08:00

I need to GYM!!!!

2009-09-01T01:27:00.002+08:00

Today's events made me realise that whatever I have, I should cherish it cos there's no guarantee that it'll be there tomorrow...

PS: FUCK YOU

Your False Pretense...

2009-08-22T00:05:00.003+08:00

This song is especially for you...oh look I even put up a video for you to enjoy together with the song...you should know who you are...if you don't...then carry on in your dream world...your time will come... :)

Oh, it's time to let it go

The world's got a funny way of turning 'round on you

When a friend tries to stab you right in the face

Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew

Don't sweat it, {it was} set on false pretense

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change

And it doesn't seem likely to fade

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change

Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

It's sacrifice

False pretense you'll hurt again

Stop pretending to deny

False pretense you'll hurt again

All along you know you thought you got the best of me

{But} you were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face

I cannot believe you claimed you were my family

Don't sweat it - it's set on false pretense

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change

And it doesn't seem likely to fade

Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change

Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

It's sacrifice

False pretense you'll hurt again

Stop pretending to deny

False pretense you'll hurt again

Oh, it's time to let it go

I can't seem to understand it how you turned out to be so cold

You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?

It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke...

It's sacrifice

False pretense you'll hurt again

Stop pretending to deny

False pretense you'll hurt again

So play the game until you run out

And play the game into my hand

P.S This is MY BLOG...therefore I have the freedom to write WHAT I FEEL...don't like it? DEAL WITH IT...cos you gotta learn that LIFE'S NOT FAIR HONEY... :P

2009-08-09T00:46:00.001+08:00

these guys...are like the best in the world...oh and my Jia Yean is the most loved....hahaha

miss you alot Thirsty Hippo!!!!

Brainwaves

2009-08-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

hello all...the past couple of days have been a sort of a "break" for me...a break from reality that is...isoltion in HQ NCC felt good as I was more in control of the way things went on around me. So, a little prequel to whats been happening since 4th August till today...booked in to HQ NCC for Camp Steel...appointed Conducting Officer and Company Commander for the camp, however, had to leave early on thursday as a return to my alma mater was required. NDP rehearsal was really pressuring, but it was a refreshing change of environment. The innocent, protected walls of BHS as compared to the uncompromising world beyond the gates. The NDP rehearsal started really sketchily...but after tireless practice runs by the cadets from all the UGs, i'm glad to say that we ended thursday on a high note.

Woke up really late today...was supposed to meet ARNOLD at 7am at BHS but i woke up at 7am!! That is FAIL kau tau!! So rushed to get ready and cabbed my ass down to BHS...luckily flag raising was later than usual. The ceremony was impressive with the flag bearers doing a great job. Celebrations were quite simple-just sang national day songs..and no thanks to RYO who invited the "SPECIAL GUEST" to sing in front of the entire school...hahaha...damn paiseh kau tau...fast forward to parade...

Seeing the UGs forming up on their positions really jangled my nerves. A couple of words from the Parade Officer In Charge (me..hehe) and off to their respective form up points...i wasnt expecting much, but they really left me in awe with a flawless parade. It was so perfect that it literally gave me goosebumps...the saluting of the during the parade march past brought a sense of pride that cannot be described by words.

After parade, lunched with my favourite junior awesomes at Pizza Hut...as usual tears flowed freely - tears of laughter that is...hahaha..."SIR MY SHIT GOT BLOOD...MY SHIT GOT BLOOD!!!" my all time favourite girl (JIA YEAN) came after her chem test...it felt really good to be my self again with these guys...i could leave my worries behind for a couple of hours and laugh from my heart...i love y'all alright....hahaha...but still...."YOU ALL FAIL KAU TAU!!!"

Oh well...the fun's over...now its back to reality....damn...till next time...

- CICAKMAN -

Signing out...

P.S: To all outgoing BHS cadets...congrats on the wonderful performance!

where'd you go?

When it gets FUCKING FRUSTRATING

2009-08-03T17:42:00.009+08:00

Hey all..a little warning before start...this post ain't gonna be pretty...it gonna have lots of profanities..and its gonna be a real angry post...so i suggest..if you aren't Jia Yean, Keenan, Pearls, Jasmin, Adilah, Arnold, Nura, Hafeez, Sara, Nadiah, Ella, Khai or anyone whose genuinely interested in my shit...and you can't help...its best to stop reading here...

Well..3rd August 2009...a really fucked up day...well...as some of you may know..recent events have really fucked my original plans for today...and i would like to say thank fucking you to all those who contributed to this mess...one fucking month...one fucking month people...i planned every fucking detail..from the biggest fucking happening to the smallest fucking detail...i fucking told you thinking that you could help but what happened? You fucked MY plans insteadyou fucking knew that i was already doing it and u fucked it all up with your nice plan instead....that was real nice alright...real fucking nice...so that really pissed the fuck out of me over the weekend..but..i still tried to save the situation with a PLAN B, trying to fucking put the fact behind me...but NO...all of you HAD to come in and fuck it up YET AGAIN...and this time...YOU PEOPLE FUCKING KNEW!!!!! The nerve of you...let's get one thing straight...I'm not mad...I'm confused...I'm hurt...I don't fucking understand what you guys have in mind...what? you wanna look like the good friends and put me up as the useless one? you wanna be in her good books and put me up as the insignificant character? you guys wanna be the ones who care while im the cheapskate one? Is that fucking it?! Cos if it is...you guys fucking won alright...y'all officially fucked me, my plans and my feelings not once...but twice in a row...yeah...thats a score of

2-0...happy? i hope so...if any of you happens to read this and thinks that im being groundless..or I'm out of my tree...let me know...cos to me...it looks like you guys aren't bothered about what others may feel...or what others may think...has it ever occured? Or were y'all too busy thinking "hey let's fuck him up"...so much for friends...so much for cliques...if you guys cared...you would have seen.. you would have known what i was trying to do...instead of being so fucking shallow and fucking it all up this way...it might seem a like a small issue to you guys...but to me...you guys are a real insensitive lot...i wont say anything out...i wont do anything...but i'll let you know...u managed to fuck me up more than ever...you hear me? GOOD JOB!!

I'll fuck off now...

PS:buddy..i'm sorry i didnt do much for your birthday...i tried my best...but it crumbled one by one...everything...im really really sorry...it's not that i couldnt be bothered...but...i wasnt given a chance to...im really really sorry...

2009-08-02T02:40:00.001+08:00

JIAYEAN!!!

PEOPLE ARE BEING MEAN AGAIN!!!!!

I NEED HUGGGGG!!!!!

*TEARS IN EYES*

AWESOMES!!!!

2009-07-31T23:23:00.002+08:00

I honestly, truly, sincerely, faithfully, undyingly love these guys...or girls...eh girls right? HAHAHAAAAA...

-Eh beatrice...what thursday watch out all? Beatrice only...no kick kau tau!!!

Pop goes my knee...again...

2009-07-29T22:31:00.002+08:00

Hello to the readers of my blog...as usual..i haven't updated in awhile...mainly cos theres nothing to update on anyway...well this time..i DO have something to blog about...as the title explains...Mr Rugger popped his knee...yet again...not as bad as the last time though...this one could be popped back in on the spot...the lack of painkillers wasnt appreciated though...hurt like dung whn it was being treated...but cannot scream...why? Cos got girls siaaa...hahaha...must be keras babe...haha...so diagnosis: overstretching and possible tearing of the ANTERIOR & MEDIAL CRUCIATE LIGAMENT...wah style...so sports science kau tau...hahaha...out for a frigging month with the possibility of surgery eh...chao chee bye...and POL-ITE is around the corner...and it still hurts like crap...plus the pain in the armpits due to the crutches...FUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCKKKK...oh but special mention to my babes SARA & ELLA for being with me all the way till i went home...thanks alot ayte...love u guys loads..CORNETTO MCFLURRY next week set? Haha...that's all for now...till next time...

- CICAKMAN -

Signing Out...

2009-07-26T14:07:00.002+08:00

Today...

I realised what I've been missing all this while...

You were there since the start...

But I was the one who ignored Your presence...

Throughout all these years...

I only turned to you when the bad times came...

While I had my fun during the good times...

Now I realise all the follies...

All the mistakes...

And I have truly realised...

That it was You who was there for me...

When I couldn't turn to my family or friends...

Now I ask for one last chance...

To remember You as You remember me...

And to do...

All I can...

To be a better man...

Back to BHS

2009-07-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

Went back to BHS today for NCC training as an OFFICER...well reached quite early...spoke to a few teachers...reminisced the old times...got updated on latest school proceedings...hahaha...it was a proud moment to be back...especially whn juniors went "SYAZWAN!!!!" upon me entering the school...i have to admit...it felt really nice...did i really leave such a mark in the school? If i did...i hope its a positive one where my juniors can follow...haha...best part of the day was catching up with my favourites...BEATRICE EUNICE JIAYEAN JIARU and my personal favourite...RYO YAMAMOTO!!! Hahaha...lots of things were shared and updated... just like the good old days at the mcdonald table eh guys? Then came the training...n thats where things went down down down...standard was worse than crap...basics were lost and advanced were forgotten...woooo...a friendly training session turned into a full scale Cadet-fucking free for all...265 push ups in a single training...i daresay...thats a RECORD!!! Ugh..POP in 2 weeks and marching is fucked up...basic drills all over the place...ALOT OF WORK TO DO BOY...sigh...till next time...

- CICAKMAN -

Signing out...

EH CHEE BYE!!! KNOCK IT DOWN AHHH!!!!

KAU TAU!!!

2009-07-19T00:48:00.004+08:00

So..finally posting after a long hiatus. Well to day was indeed an eventful one...went for a CE activity at Bishan qith my awesome ladies (SARA, ELLA, RYAN) kau tau!! They are indeed awesome cos they helped me survive the FUCKING HUMID WEATHER haha...the point of the CE activity was to be a group marshall but my group went MIA in the end..so just hung around with RYAN and SARA whose groups were also MIA. Haha...so much for a CE activity eh... had lots of fun making my girls laugh...oh and bullying each of them was even better kau tau! Example:

SITUATION 1 (RYAN):

RYAN: Eh...if the police gun shoot..got effect anot ah? *LONG PAUSE*

ME: *CUTTING IN* Got ah sia!! Shoot then die ah!!! Then what else?

RYAN: %$#@&!!!!

SITUATION 2 (RYAN AGAIN):

RYAN:*SAYS SOMETHING*

ME: eh ryan stop it eh...tired sia layan you...

RYAN: *STARTS TO SAY SOMETHING*

ME: *CUTS IN* Eh...rather than I layan you better I layan my toenail sia!!!

RYAN: #@$%&!!!!

SITUATION 3 (ELLA):

ELLA: Wah style ah 7-11 in a bomb shelter!!

ME: Sure when got emergency alot of ppl will rush in kau tau...

ELLA: Ak ah seh!! *GOES ON TO LIST THE GROUPS OF PPL SHE WILL THROW OUT OF BOMB SHELTER*

ELLA: Then if Ella wanna go in?

ME: Eh! Ella have or don't have no difference what! So just throw out ah!

ELLA: WALAUWEI CICAK!!! TAK SUKER KAU AH!!! TAK NAK BEBUAL DENGAN KAU LAGI AH!!

ME: *LAUGHS*

So...those were some of the 'bullying situations' that happened today...hahaha...well...tired ah sia...but the day out with my awesome ladies was one to remember indeed...HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Quotes of the Day:

"KAU TAU!!!!"

"A NOISY NOISE ANNOYS AN OYSTER" (try saying it fast 5 times over)

till next time...

- CICAKMAN -

SIGNING OUT...

2009-07-13T01:27:00.001+08:00

CURRENT FOCUS:

RUGBY

MUSCLE

STUDDDDYYYYYYY!!!!!!

2009-07-04T10:22:00.002+08:00

The A-Z on why I love my buddy...

2009-06-29T09:28:00.001+08:00

Awesome 24/7 of the time...

Bold, and not afraid to let others know her thoughts

Cheerful, always with a smile on her face

Delightful, makes me smile with the little things she does

Enthusiastic, always excited to try something fun

Full of energy, never gets tired

Gets serious when it’s time to, knows when to get down to work

Helpful, helps me get milk tea and sandwiches from Esplanade J

Intelligent, has the ability to make valuable breakthroughs if she wants to.

Jovial, rarely seen with a frown on her face.

Kind, shares her bread with me when I’m broke J

Loving, haha well, I know she loves me.

Meticulous, gets things done right up to standard

Naughty, forever disturbing me

Obliging, never reluctant to do me favours

Patient, has the patience to handle my crap even in the wee hours of the morning.

Quintessence, everything I need in a friend..and more

Reliable, I can count on her to be there for me anytime I need her. Even at 3 in the morning

Super-buddy, my hero yes?

Thoughtful, always has others’ feelings in mind

Ubiquitous, in control of lots of issues she faces

Vivacious, never mundane or monotonous

Weird, some of her little antics still scare me

Xtremely entertaining never fails to put a smile on my face

Y am I doing this? To let everyone know how awesome my buddy is

Zesty, never tired of being happy

Thanks for everything you’ve done for me buddy...I owe ya lots and yeah someday I’ll make up for it yeah...oh and thanks for being patient whenever I’m being a bitch. Appreciate all that you’ve done for me...you’re the best I’ve got budd...ILY

AYG Duty

2009-06-28T23:38:00.002+08:00

Hello all...its been awhile since I posted anything sensible or maybe reader-friendly here...sooo..yesterday...nth much to do...woke up kinda early...gymmed...thn got home a little chores here and there and sat down to my XBOX..hehe..ok enough mundane stuff...fast forward to AYG duty...all decked out in my cool shirt and shades...met BUDDY NURA at CCK mrt..as usual eh..and guess wht..BUDDY reached before me! Woohoo!! Good job budd...haha...trained down to REDHILL and thank god my fever didn't act up eh or else SOMEONE would be there all alone..haha..reported and settle down..of course laptops never fail to excite us...though figuring out the username and password wasn't much fun...but hey...RP students...problem solvers aye?..our solution to this problem statement? ASK THE SUPERVISOR! Yeyeeaah...logging felt better than sex...at least we could do sth for the next 5 hours...yes people..5 hours...5pm-10pm...so...youtube-ed with BUDDY and confused people on MSN as well haha..oh yeah...going to TP yes BUDD? :P Dinner was next...proteins are much welcomed...2 drumsticks...a large tofu spells UGH! And cabbage was..well...no comments...but still proteins are proteins after all...next up..DRAG ME TO HELL!!! Wasn't up to my expectations...I figured it would be some horror flick but it was more of gross than horrifying...and BUDDY thank god we didnt watch it at the movies...waste momey eh...covering the face most of the time...takot kepe...haha...but oh well thats my BUDDY NURA... :P finally 10pm...waited helluva loong time for the bus...tried to scare buddy but didnt manage to...not yet at least...train ride back wasn't very eventful...except for the odd old man...but oh well...it WAS late at night to say the least...went back...online-ed abit...slept...thats it readers...till next time...

BUTTY-1

Signing out...

being a good boy and listening to BUDDY

2009-06-25T22:47:00.001+08:00

I, Syazwan, will not succumb to the temptations of vitamin R! YESSAH!!!

2009-06-23T09:35:00.000+08:00

AND MY BUDDY'S NOT IN SCHOOL...

BOOOOOHOOOO... :'(

2009-06-19T11:28:00.000+08:00

Damn...out for a week...

frames from school...

2009-06-18T15:06:00.003+08:00

2009-06-18T09:16:00.000+08:00

EH...why eh?

2009-06-16T20:22:00.001+08:00

Sometimes...

Fire has to be fought...

With fire...

2009-06-16T00:40:00.002+08:00

Wow..im really getting into the mood of blogging regularly...and NURA should knw why...hmm..first day of school after 2 weeks..abit of rustiness here and there...but yeah..i know i can catch up soon enough...woohoo...what a day...started as usual..at CCK mrt to go to school with BUDDY PIGGY (NURA) but for the 1st time..BUDDY was earlier!!! Like OHMTGAWWDD BUDDY WAS EARLIER!!! thn bussed to skul frm interchange..coins again...cos of TRAIN CONCESSION EH BUDDY...lol..in class...internet was a bitch...on off on off...baskett..pukul sampai mati kaang..met up wid SARA NADIAH, IRYANA, HAFEEZ & SAID...sialah...its still on sia...as long as it remains an act eh..haha..oh well thts abt it for skul...after skul...things went doooowwwnnn the draaaaaaiiiiiiinnnn...bad news revealed..and cant do shit abt it..but again...thanks to my BUDDY NURA...i had a ranting outlet...feel much better now...thanks eh BUDDY...shes the one i can count on all the time...BUDDY PIGGY TEMBAM BEST GILERR!!! Haha..till next time..

- CICAKMAN -

Signing out...

P.S: ILY BUDDY

2009-06-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

And I'll keep waiting...

2009-06-13T01:54:00.001+08:00

NICE ONE SYAZ...

IDIOT...

State of Play

2009-06-12T22:54:00.002+08:00

Movie day today...hahaha...no chick flick...hehe..watched State of Play...not bad ah but according to NICKY its a slow movie...fine ah..you very fast okay? Lunched at Long John before movie...and wow...saw CIKGU MAS...Cikgu masih comel macam dulu eh..and NO CIKGU! I'M NOT A PLAYER...I just happen to have good female friends whom I go out with...aper je...hahaha..sharing popcorn n bullshitting in the movie was awesome-ness...but cabbing wasn't eh...but thats a different story... :P that's all for now I guess...just making it a habit to post regularly...hahaha...

- CICKMAN -

Signing Out..

Prized possesion

2009-06-12T12:56:00.002+08:00

I've never had it...

I've always wanted it...

Now I've got it...

And I'm gonna keep it...

Protect it with all I've got...

Appreciate it with all I've got...

Hold it tight...

Watch myself...

Cos it probably the best I'll ever have...

- CICAKMAN -

Signing out...

Sabah Trip + Out with Piggy Tembam

2009-06-11T21:50:00.003+08:00

Back from Sabah...many interesting things happened there but i wont focus much on it ayye...good to be home...it was five looonnng days...but i gotta say Kota Kinabalu is a cool place...clean and all...better thn West M'sia (JB, KL etc.)...overall it was a good experience...i'll definitely go back there again...perhaps to Sandakan? Its more of my place...wildlife babehh..ok enough about Sabah...

Went out with BUDDY PIGGY TEMBAM (NURA) today...she had her F1 interview thingy...and i tagged along...since "i was free anyway" hehehe...very free eh TEMBAM? So met up at 11.30..well it was supposed to be at 11.30...but due to the "late bus" and the "red light" and stuff TEMBAM came around 11.45...smiling macam retard...reached super early (ok maybe not super) and hung around the cool sofa thingys b4 BUDDY TEMBAM had to go for the briefing+interview session...thank god she got group 6 eh...i feel for the idiot who went, "i got 16!" hahahaha...after that went for lunch at KFC...well i had lunch...while BUDDY was sweet enough to wait while i ate...had some quality chat time (CHEYYY!!!)before going back...hahaha...wah...detailed sia my post...nvm ah..general info eh...*thumbs up*

PS: I found that pic on my phone TEMBAM...please explain eh...hahahaha

CICAKMAN

Signing Out...

To BUDDY PIGGY

2009-06-06T12:59:00.001+08:00

I AM SORRY...KU TAK AKAN BUAT LAGI...

CYA SOON BUDDYYYYYY.... :)

Leaving On a Jetplane

2009-06-06T01:03:00.002+08:00

So...24 hrs before i go...to sabah...kota kinabalu...hmm..intial reluctance has reduced slightly..due to the availiability of GYM!!!! Hahaha yeah its fast becoming my obsession...i need to pump iron...cos according to coach...i'm too "small"...like WHATTHEFUCK YEAH??!! Ok...back to topic...5 days in Kota Kinabalu(K.K) wht to do? other than mount kinabalu..i dono what else to do...gym ah sia...i guess..$99 just to lift weights eh? thats some expensive muscle im building..LOL..today was frustrating...yet in a way positive..ok well the frustrating was 90% and the positive was like 10%...frustrating cos mom was taking like FOREVER to get home...n i was like FUUUUUUCCCCCCKKK!!! I NEED TO GET HOOOOOOMMMMMMMME!!! Geewhiz...the positive part started whn i got home...LAPTOP was switched on immediately...and spoke(msn) to BUDDY PIGGY...after like not chatting for 24hrs...macam rindu like that...hahaha...then spoke(FB) to JIA YEAN...like ZOMFG after frigging long lah siol! Best ah sia...but still..JY...WO XIANG NI AH...we need to meet up real soon...hmm...will be missing lots of ppl over the 5 days...heres a list...

Jia Yean (already missing)
Khairul
Sara Nadiah
Nadiah Diyanah
Team Republic Warriors

Last but most definitely not the least...

BUDDY PIGGYYYYYY!!!! (save the best for the last eh..)

but BUDDY PIGGY won't miss me lah eh...its ok..hahaha I'll still bring back Gunung Kinabalu for you...while the rest get KANINABULU...kahkahkah...ok ah...thts all for now..till next time...

-CICAKMAN-

Signing Out...

BUDDY PIGGY...eh..wo xiang ni ahhhh..eh ni MAKE SURE ni tag wo de blog hor...

ing gai ni mei you tag wo bu yao ken ni jiang hua liao...

School Holidayssss

2009-06-02T13:03:00.002+08:00

Hello all..school holidays are like here...one day of holiday has passed...and i was rotting at home...oh well...im not known to have a life...hahahai really need to hit the gym...probably will after i complete this post...damn lazy though...nono...must go...haha...hmm..so my holiday routine is...well my day starts around 10-11pm...yes ppl...PM! hahaha...thts whn i go online and talk to PIGGY...till about 4 or 5 am...hahaha...then sleep...till around 11+ or 12...wake up prepare lunch for sis n breakfast for myself...hahaha then laze around...TV/XBOX/Computer...text PIGGY abit...then laze around more...n text again...mom gets home n chill with mom abit...n then go back to step 1...hahaha...damn...i should add some spice into my life...still misses JY/JAS etc...hmmm...oh...sabah soon and lover/scandal is coming back soon...should hang out sometime yeah babe? :P Till next time...

- CICAKMAN -

Signing Out...

Where opposition meets humiliation

2009-05-26T21:53:00.003+08:00

Sups to all...hahaha...today was rather boring..ok maybe not so uh...classwork was awesome..but Mr Smart Guy didnt bring his laptop charger today of all the days..so i was paying attention alot today..cos no FB n MSN to seduce me..hahaha...cinta was still crying in class...wonder whats the issue..well..whtever it is hope shes ok...sad sia see her keep breaking dwn...had rugby after skul...oso boring...WHY? Cos i sat out training..listened to my AWESOMES n reserved myself for TENS haha..cheeyyy...macam paham...hmm weirdly...cicakman misses JY...eh thirsty hippo...i miss ur daily screams in class lah sia..nobody to join me in my daily crap...eh..good job in your mid years alright...proud of you babe...ACJC next year ah...hahaha...ah well..nth else to post...BLOODY HELL NURA...COME THE FCUK ONLINE GIRL!!!! Hahaha..till next time...

- CICAKMAN -

Signing Out...

HOT STUFFZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-23T01:18:00.004+08:00

yeehaaaa....5th week of skul down....hahaha...as u can see from the pics...i have wonderful frens...nerd..lol! Ah the one tht probably impacts us the most is probably Thirsty Hippo...right Nura? XD the voice..oh so seductive (NOT!!) hahaha...played M.I ytd...rugby match...dished out a thrashing to thm...hahaha...not without a price though...im like a blood bank now...ahahahaha...okok doctor tmr...before my bosses come after me..:P oh well..thts all for now...till next time...

CICAKMAN...

- Signing Out -

P.S:Nura..am I an asshole now?? XD

SHL hangout

2009-05-17T19:55:00.001+08:00

Hello all..finally a proper post after such a long time..went to Innova JC today for crowd control duty...the day started horribly for me though..had to be at Innova at 6.45...woke up at 6.30...wonderful...had to cab down there bloody hell...however.. the day got better...met up with my SHL buddies and got hyper...truth or dare at RP after the event and pastamania lunch was very much enjoyed. Really miss them after not lepak-ing with them for sooooo long...

To Ella, Khai, Sam, Nadiah Diyanah & Sara Nadiah...I love all of y'all to bits...and yes...Sara+Syazwan= Dare Queen & King...muahahahahahaaaa

Cicakman

Signing Out

waaaaahhh...

2009-05-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

waaaaahhhh...so long nvr blog...hahahaha..cb..busy ryte...

The Saga of Love

2009-05-03T17:03:00.002+08:00

Everyone listen, these things happen sometimes
Those who give their hearts
May end up giving their lives

A legend goes that someone who loved with that passion and zest is dead...
So listen to this story...
A story of love, life and death

As the story goes...
There was a young man who was madly in love with a young lady...
The beauty of the lady was one that was famous all around the world...
Many came to make her theirs but none succeeded...not even once...
But what was different between this young man and his love...
Is the essence of the legend...The Saga of Love...

The young man’s only wish and desire was to see the colours of his love and affection in the eyes of the beauty...
To deter him was like trying to stop the river from flowing...
To stop him was like persuading the flowers from growing...
The cause for him to be like this...
And the reason for his determination...
Would all fall apart very, very soon...

The legend has it that the intoxicating beauty he loved already had somebody else in her eyes and her heart...
Little did the man know that his dreams was turning into a nightmare
The story of his shattered love and broken dreams, pieced into the enchanting tale...
The Saga of Love...

Listen everyone as the story goes on...
As much as one laughs in life...
There will come a moment where he will cry someday...
Being in love...
The beauty was blinded...
Fooled by the sweet words of the villain,
She thought was her knight in shining armour...
The saga unfolds...
Listen to it today...

The truth was that the man the she loved was disloyal and dishonest...
Smothered by the pleasantries of love...
She failed to see the spots of evil...
Which he hid under the mask of prince charming he had on...

After loving such an unfaithful wretch...
After giving him her heart and soul...
The beauty was only to suffer death at the hands of the ungrateful monster...

In a jungle of heat and flames...
He watched in laughter as the woman who loved him got devoured...
The scorching heat burnt her helpless being...
The merciless flames licked away the existence of her love...
The purity of her love...
Burnt away by the tongues of deceit...
The tale of her woes...
The tapestry of her pain...
Blend into the legend...
The Saga of Love...

However, what a murderer never understands...
Is that this is a crime that can never be atoned...
It is a mark which will never be erased in time...
The mark stays on the hands of the killer...

What the villain did not know was...
When he murdered the innocent young lady...
Someone did reach her...
Attempts he made to save her...
Efforts he made to stall death...
Resulted in vain...

By the time he got to her...
He was unable to save her...
The flames of hatred and greed...
Defeated the waves of true love and faith...
Death was the result...

The young man was crushed...
His love was dead...
Burnt away...
With the body of the woman he loved
Tears flowed like never before...
But there was no point to it...
Neither tears nor blood could bring his love...
Back to life...

The story holds that the youngster who knew the murderer had returned...
Revenge fuelled his rage...
Anger controlled his emotions...
In search of the murderer he went...
But life had destined that he too meets the shadow of death...

Taking matters into his own hands...
He duelled with the killer...
Swords clashed...
And blood flowed...
Like a tiger he fought...
To avenge the death of the woman of his dreams...

Unfortunately...
God had decided that true love was not to prevail...
A twist of the wrist and a flash of the blade...
He felt the pain of defeat...
The sword through his chest...
His life flashed past him...
The anger in him burned...

Just before the last ounce of life left him...
He raised his weapon and brought it down...
Taking off the head of the murderer...
It was then that the young man realised...
That his love story was not one that would end with death...
But one that would begin with death and continue in heaven...
With no fear of ending...

This tale of births, deaths and miracles is known as...
The Saga of Love

hey guys...just a little story i wrote...not entirely original as it was inspired by a movie i watched...if you read it...please comment on it on my tagboard...i would really really appreciate it alot...both positive and negative comments are welcome...thanks y'all...

- Cicakman -

Signing out...

2009-05-03T03:17:00.001+08:00

Syaz-1 has fallen for J_ _ _ _ _ _...

haizzz...

2009-05-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

Problems don't kill you...

They make you smarter...

Sadness don't hurt you...

It makes you tougher...

Obstacles don't block you...

They make you fitter...

So everytime you are faced with problems, sadness or obstacles...

Pick yourself up and kick them in the butt...

Cos you're getting smarter, tougher and fitter...

Its weird sometimes how advice is so easy to give but so hard to accept...I need to heed my own advice... :(

Republican

2009-04-21T22:05:00.002+08:00

So far..2 days of school...im thriving yo...but in class...oh well..some awesome ppl..some less than awesome...but oh well..thts life..shit hpns...tmrs module is maths...not my favourite..but oh well....ok...gna start gymming tmr...skipping uh....gonna turn into a hyper rabbit...lol...OMG SARA GNA WEAR DRESS TMR!!!! AWESOME OR WHAAAATTTTTT....ahahahahaha..hopefully she forgets our deal...lol..tofu nose...ah well...nth else to blog abt...be back soon!!!

CICAKMAN...

- Signing Out -

P.S: Am I sexual?? YEEEAAAHHH!!!!

SHL

2009-04-20T00:04:00.002+08:00

SHL!!!!

AWOOH!!!!

SHL!!!

AWOOH!!!!

SHL!!!

AWOOH! AWOOH! AWOOOOOHHHH!!!!!

schools like in a cple of hours time...awesomely excited...classmates seems great...seniors are awesome...great start...FOP was intense or whaaattt....war cry...dance....awesome awesome....starting school with a bang lah sial!!!!hahaha...

SEXY-1

- Signing off -

E37M OR E73M??

Pictures with Imah <3

2009-04-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

Finally...a CLT...

2009-04-11T15:10:00.003+08:00

Hi all..I'm finally back into the same world as the rest of you are...back from my passing out parade and now a commisioned CADET LIEUTENANT....P.O.P was indeed an emotional occasion for me...firstly cos...family was there...secondly the two ppl who have always supported me were there (Jia Yean and Jasmin..i truly love you guys...) thirdly cos Mr Koh was there (he donned my rank for me) and most importantly...Imah was there!! I was really very very very happy to see her...after such a long time...through all those tough phases...shes still by my side...i have to say that I'm ashamed by what I did and i promise that it won't happen again...parade itself went quite well...though the marching in command was a little messed up due to my untimely loss of voice...nonetheless...I'm happy that I managed to do BHSS proud my getting the Platoon Best Cadet Award...singing the NCC song and reciting the Officers' Creed was also a proud moment for me...but the best of all was when Sergeant Major dismissed us...peak caps were tossed and hugs were exchanged...I had to try hard to hold back tears...next came the Syndicate performance...the plan worked to perfection and the rose was perfectly presented to dearest Imah in front of the entire hall...to my Central brothers...though we may not meet as often anymore...the friendship and support you guys showed me will forever be remembered...Thanks for believing in me and choosing me to lead you guys out during the parade...ZORDONS FOREVER!!! AWOOHHH!!!!

SEXY-1

- Signing Out -

if we both know it...then why are we holding back?

i love you more than you know it...

C-130

2009-03-28T02:50:00.003+08:00

C-130 rolling down the strip...

Airborne Rangers take a little trip...

Stand up, Hook up, shuffle to the door...

Jump right out on the count of 4

(1 thousand...2 thousand...3 thousand...4!!!!)

If my chute doesn't open wide..

I got the reserve right by my side...

If that one doesn't open wide...

Then I'm in for a jolly good ride...

If I land in the Russian war...

Send me back with a Russian whore

If I land in the Vietnam war...

Send me back to Singapore...

If I land in Sentosa...

Send me back by cable car..

AIRBORNE RANGERS!!!

Leaving..

2009-03-22T20:57:00.002+08:00

Hello all...this will probably be my last post before i leave for camp...3 weeks away or what...in a way its good..I get to pull away from all the negativities around me...its just me and my commitment to NCC...I'll be missing lots of ppl though...especially my DPA buddies...will be missing one week of school...thats really annoying...haiz...but the thing thats really bugging me the most is the PE Leader workshop on Friday...I was super annoyed..I missed half a day of school just to talk to the wall...i don't understand whats so difficult about participating...and for the record...Wilson can never..no let me change that...WILL NEVER make it as the chairperson of PE leaders...the whole lot of them...even my impression of Jeanette changed totally after that days session..the whole bunch of them..Wilson, Jeanette, Ivy and Fanny...what the hell...stop preaching about enthusiasm and leading by example if you can't do it yourself...the main rule of leadership is to walk the talk guys...if you can't do it then don't even bother...you're just embarassing yourselves and the whole PE leaders...we'd rather have people who have less ability with the right attitude rather than people with ability but with SHIT ATTITUDE...yeah as you can see I'm friggin pissed...I don't care what anyone says about you being a great friend and having a great character...in my eyes..you're just an immature little boy who thinks he's a bloody casanova cos he has girls canoodling up his ass...honestly Wilson...I really hope you read this so you know the impression you give people...and fyi...we're on opposite sides my boy...so good luck...

Syazwan

- Signing Out -

SYNDICATE "BOTAK" 1

2009-03-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

hahahaha...brothers or what!!! One botak all botak...

members of the 57th CLT Course Syndicate 1

from left: (front) Syazwan & Sebastian

(back) Raymond, Fazwin, Yoke Hong & Jon

hahahaha one for all = all for one brothers!!!

Syazwan Misses Naquiya

2009-03-13T01:08:00.002+08:00

okay..since i hvnt had anything to blog about lately...i shall blog abt how much i miss NAQUIYA...well...okay...i genuinely do miss her...i mean after all she is my second friend in bhs and also cos shes such a darling...hahaha...well...what isit tht i miss...well it has to be the quirkiness...the distinctive "ohmygawwdd" and also....CHICKEN RICE...okay thank god naquiya's coming back in june...please God let me have free time...and at least one game while nicky's here so that we cn spend some time together...wow...praying online...interesting...hahahaha...oh gosh...3 week camp soon...i will survive i will survive!!

Lieutenant Syazwan

- Signing Out -

Poly Pictures

2009-03-10T20:57:00.003+08:00

Jemputan...

2009-03-08T15:25:00.003+08:00

okay...I'm back from set design...tired...but its all piecing together like finally...so I went to school on a Sunday...doing backdrops and stuff...costume design and makeup was also part of our schedule...interestingly...or maybe not...the school was empty...canteen was closed but thank God for 7-11 hahaha...yesterday was fun...went for jemputan...with HASLINDA at MACNAIR ROAD...it was rather weird...kosong like and we went at almost 2pm sehh...so we ate and left for somewhere else which I shan't elaborate...so all in all it was a day out with juniors...or rather...junior...hahaha...oh btw HAS....stop being horny...and I'm very nice to bring you everywhere I go...wakakakakaka... XD

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

P.S - Cikgu Mas!!!! Terima Kasih kerana membelanja (I think its the correct imbuhan) kami di Secret Recipe!!!! Cikgu BEEESSSSTTTTT!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAAAA!!!!

Guess whos back?

2009-03-02T14:11:00.003+08:00

okay...this is a celebratory post...why? COS ATIKA TAGGED MY BLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously!!!how long ago was the last time u tagged my blog huh? Don't friend you thn you knw...oh well...im in class now...theres someone highly annoying in the vicinity...has something to comment on everything i do...(weird sentence structure..but yeah..) "syazwan music too loud" (i could hear her fucking music thru her freaking earpiece..and shes like 3metres away...) "syazwan so noisy" (when i was talking to the fellow beside me...) syazwan this syazwan that...KNNB CCB!! geeezzzz...so rimas...what..u like me thn say it lah...bloody hell...lol so perasaan...ahahahaha...but even if she does...i still like my one n only...u know who right atika? ;)

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out-

A Day In Poly... XD

2009-02-26T13:17:00.004+08:00

Back to BHS

2009-02-18T21:01:00.005+08:00

Went to BHS today...after a shit day in school...my much loved juniors made me feel alot better...oh and much loved JY too...cheered me up just to see their smiling faces...haiz...well...reached school ard 1pm and talked to the guard uncle for awhile...made my way to the classroom blocks and had a little tour...apparently Seri saw me and she and Has chased me...so cute...thn came my favourite...Ryo Yamamoto...hugging brudder moto felt good...felt much happier after that...went back to the canteen for the much adored roti by makcik...school ended after that and i went in search for dearest Jia Yean...the one i needed to talk to the most...found her and got another hug...and felt even better...after awhile...saw Beatrice and Eunice followed by Has n Seri...oh btw did i mention...Has looks like Dora the Explorer with her newly cut-ted hair...so cute...hahaha...pictured with them and then went off for lunch with JY...tht was about it...

Personal Messages:

Jia Yean: Nehneh...i miss u already...i need to talk to you more more more!!! Btw...hang in there ok...its not gonna be easy but i'll be here for you yes...jia you!!! I Loves Yous!

Seri: Oi! Very happy to see you happy now...good tht you didnt dwell on unneccesary issues and got on with life... I Loves Yous Toos!!

Has: Your cut-ted hair looks very adorable! Awwwwww...hahaha..psst..chase your dreams all the way okays...I Loves Yous Threes!!!

Ryo: Brudder Moto! I'm gonna miss you alot alot alot man...I really need your cheerfulness in school!! Boohoo...more hugs ok...I Loves Yous Fours!!!!

Beatrice: You! I come all the way just to see your face and you never even wave to me! Don't friend you ah! Eh...no matter how tough the it gets...hang in there ok...i know u can do very well....I Loves Yous Fives!!!!!

To everyone above: Guys...study hard ok...its the most impt year...dun give up...remember...tough times don't last...but tough people do! You guys are tough...so go for it!! Loves...

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

you again...

2009-02-08T15:52:00.002+08:00

Very disappointed in you...but...I'll still be here for you...remember me when you need me...you're free to come and go as you wish...

You...

2009-02-07T00:28:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry...but I'm starting to leave you behind...I'm losing hope...you probably left without me noticing...great job...

Polytechnic Preparatory Programme...

2009-02-05T20:56:00.002+08:00

Finally...I get to put up a decent blogpost...well...this post is mainly abt my poly life so far...haha...so if nt interested thn...suggest wht else i cn blog abt yeah? Hahahaha...so PPP started on monday...i was super nervous pls...but being the cool cucumber i am..i went acting as if i was the most confident mofo in the world..i thought there'll be a bunch of scarryyyy ppl but evryone there was wonderful...i even have running buddies now...n finally all my friends stay around my area...n apparently...my classmate finds my face very amusing...ERICA!!! Whole day laugh at my face...is it really that funny? Haha...at least entertain you in class right? Other cool friends are...

Leroy! (Mr 188)

Gary! (Run Thambi Run!!!)

Ah Chew (Ice Man)

hahaha...oh well...thats all i gotta say i guess...till next time...

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

PPP

2009-02-04T11:02:00.000+08:00

SO COOOLLL!!!! BLOGGING IN SCHOOL!!!!

2009-01-30T21:53:00.000+08:00

سيتم نقل على وانا لا تبدو مرة أخرى في الماضي

...

2009-01-29T23:46:00.003+08:00

Had a f***ing long day today...I've got as much energy as a pile of shit right now...

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

Ku ingin tinggalkan semua ini...

Buat selama-lamanya...

Ya Tuhan...

Lembutkanlah hati mereka yang berhati batu...

Tanjung Sedili...Keropok Lekor...Air Tebu...

2009-01-29T00:15:00.005+08:00

Blah blah...these are the pictures I took while at Tanjung Sedili...don't know if they are worth seeing though...LOL

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

Ku kecewa...

Kau hanya seorang daripada mereka..

Tiada bezenya antara kau dan mereka..

Kecewa...

2009-01-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

My life is currently like an old car....

Rusty...

Messy...

And badly in need of an overhaul...

Prankster Extraordinaire... :D

2009-01-24T22:09:00.002+08:00

I am officially a pro prankster...every prank i planned in 08 & 09 has been successful...april's fools in '08... Wallace during the chalet last month...and the latest...a mass prank...one brain (mine) outsmarted more than 10 brains! (leaders') wht happened was...i texted them asking if they had CCA on friday...most didn't...thn the nxt day...i texted has saying that Chamb wanted to see the leaders on friday because of certain incidents during Sec1 orientation (which was almost 3 weeks ago btw) then Has..or better known as Lin...forwarded the message to the other leaders..it was actually a pizza treat from me jy jasmin n adilah...I am proud to say that I successfully scared the shit out of them for one week...of the more interesting effects was...

Afiq: Was traumatised for one week...
Boon Chun: Told his mom he got into trouble with the principal
Has a.k.a Lin: Dreamt of Chamb...(Like waddahell)

I swear...leaders...you guys need to think further! I fooled 11 of you!!! WAKE UP YOUR IDEASSS!!!!

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

Note to self: Go back to school one more time before school reopens for pictures with beloved juniors... :D

Pissed/Fun

2009-01-23T00:35:00.003+08:00

Well...what can I say...today was one heck of a weird day...the best word to describe it...BITTERSWEET...well...i don't know...what do you call someone...for whom you sacrificed your own happiness..you stick up for him..you look out for him...you treat him like a brother...thn one fine day...he just renders all those things a crock of shit and throws it right back at your face...well...maybe I'm over-reacting...maybe I'm not...God help me pls...that aside...the sweet side of it..chilled with JY Adilah CT Syafiqah n Jasmin..yes people...the only guy...not my fault ok...long story...to cut it short...Faris couldn't wake up...so we went for lunch at KFC...enlarged whipped potato yes Adilah? After lunch was the movies...LOVE MATTERS..a hilarious movie...popcorn and pepsi was the fare...after tht was neoprint...after 2yrs+...super crazyy...hahaha...ok...thts about all the highlights of the day...back to my alma mater tomorrow...can't wait.. :D

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

P.S. To HONEY: Yes..I will give you a piggy back when you're tired..and i will wash the mud from your hair as well...hahaha...wah lao...am I your slave or whaaatttt? Hahaha bloody hell...nvm cos you know... ;D

SHOPPING SPREE!!!!!

2009-01-21T21:00:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha...today was super cool or what...pampered myself...hahaha...went to buy new HP! SAMSUNG F480 PLEASE! Super cool...touch screen! Plus..it vibrates everytime I touch it!!!! Like STIMULATION or what???!!! XD after HP..made my way down to beach road to buy...*drum roll* BAAAGGGGGGG!!!!!! Super huge the bag was...60 litres or what....hahaha I love my OUTGEAR CAPEHORN! Too bad no green or brown...but black suits me yes uncle? HAH!! Then bought a super big carabiner!! Heavy duty please!!! ZOMFG!!!! CAN'T WAIT FOR PROJECT VOYAGER!!! We shall have our HONEYMOON on the expedition yes HONEY? And matching TIMBUK2s too... AHAHAHA!!!! Funny funny...LOL...life's gooooddddd...

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

OOOHH AAAHH GALA GALA BOOMBAAAHHH!!!

Unexplored territory...

2009-01-15T23:34:00.004+08:00

A start of a new life...new experiences...new people...I'm gonna miss my family from the HILL haha...my leaders...my juniors...my clique...my teachers...gosh...emotional or what...the past couple of days have also made me realise many things...things about life...about resilience...about people...to my bestie...hang in there ok? We'll figure something out...and whatever happens I'll be there for you all the way ok...we'll figure something out...

KungFu Panda...

- Signing Out -

when the time comes to go...

I'll leave with the rest...

but my heart will always be with you...

So What?!

2009-01-13T17:01:00.002+08:00

Na na na na na na

Na na na na na

Na na na na na na

Na na na na na

I guess I just lost my girlfriend

But I don't care where she went...

So I'm gonna save my money...

Who the hell cares about rent?

She's gonna see my attitude...

And regret going home tonight..

I'm not gonna get in trouble...

I'ma enjoy my life...

Na na na na na

I'ma enjoy my life

Na na na na na

I'ma enjoy my life!

(Chorus)

So,

So what?

If you're a rock star?

You got your rock moves?

You still will need me...

And guess what...

You won't have more fun

If you think that we're done

You will regret this...

Cos tonight...

You will cry...

You'll be back...

Apologizing...

So what

If you're a rock star

You made the wrong move...

Cos i don't need you at all...

Uh Check my flow ohhh...

My friends say that I'm crazy...

For letting you go last night...

But I'm sure of what I'm doing...

I'm not losing out this fight...

What if this song's on the radio...

Thenyou will know how I feel...

You're gonna get in trouble...

You're in deep shit tonight..

Serious shit tonight...

(Chorus)

If you're a rock star?

You got your rock moves?

You stil will need me...

And guess what...

You won't have more fun...

If you think that we're done...

You will regret this...

Cos tonight...

You will cry...

You'll be back...

Apologizing...

So what...

If you're a rock star...

You made the wrong move...

Cos I don't need you at all...

hahahahahahahahahaha....

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

Separation...T.T

2009-01-10T14:00:00.002+08:00

So Sec 1 orientation is over...i miss my babies already...who knew that 1N1 could change from a quiet class to one of the most enthusiastic classes...so proud of them...they are one class I will never forget...chasing me and Seri for their wallets when i actually took out the wrong bag...making fun of Seri and Beatrice...cheering about Muthu's curryand dynamites...I love my babies...and I know they love me too...hahaha don't ask me how i know...LOL...super proud of the way leaders stepped up and took charge after whatever that happened had happened...sorry I had to be harsh on you guys...but I still love all of you!!! Keep up the good work guys..I'm sure you guys will go far...to the sec3 & 4 leaders...START FOCUSING ON STUDIES!!! SEC4 ESPECIALLY!!!

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

I SWEAR!! XD

After so long...

2009-01-07T00:23:00.002+08:00

OMG...went out with naquiya today...so nice to see her after sooo looong...hahaha...chicken rice-ed for lunch..no indoor seat so we had to sit outside...alfresco yes nicky? Hahaha...went o school after that...met up with beloved teachers...Ms Mai told me to be a relief teacher...thts a point to ponder abt...went around school with naquiya...met jasmin before long...had orientation dance practice after that..so cool...i got the whole routine first time round...power or what?! Hahaha...fooled around with Sister Has, Brudder Moto, Brudder Boon n more...feels good to be around the people i enjoy...cant wait for orientation camp...48 hrs with those guys...orgasmic or what...we can play with long black at night yes? We'll upsize it and add whipped cream as well! (inside joke) hahaha...after dance...Mcspicy-ed for dinner with the Lim sisters, afiq and steph koh...as usual..it was hilarious...never fart in the jacuzzi or what! hahaha...was a great day...wish everyday was like this...

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

It's hard...

But since I've got no choice...

I'll put it behind me..

Only time will tell..

I'm sorry...

Sec 1 Orientation!!!

2009-01-02T23:08:00.004+08:00

Went back to school today...feels good to be back or what! For the first time I really appreciated assembly...national anthem...pledge..school creed and the school song..it felt weird...like I'm gonna miss it all...okay sentiments aside...SEC ONE ORIENTATION!!!!!! Small intake this year...200-odd kids...but still...devils some of them are...not even the first activity down and fat-shit (you know who you are) broke down...so it was up to Miss & Mr Fierce to set in the discipline...scolded 1n1 terribly...it worked though..very good they were after that...lol...my typing is so yoda-ish...hahaha..had a new nickname..to add to the many that i already have..its..Kung Fu Panda...don't ask me why..hahaha...a fun day it was...saw loved one...sec 3 already...so grown up..so proud of you...ORIENTATION CAMPS ARE ORGASMIC!!!!! ALELE CHICKA BOOMA! Yes Has? Hahaha...psst got secret to tell you...HELLOOO!!! (Inside joke...lol)

KungFu Panda

- Signing Out -

Sec 1 Orientation

2009-01-02T23:08:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

2009-01-01T02:18:00.004+08:00

Whoa...New Year's was super cool...i'm still high from the pyrotechnics at sentosa...wasn't hat i expected but yeah..still amazing-ness...went to countdown with Jasmin..supposed to hang ard vivo but in the end we monorail-ed to sentosa siloso instead...turned out to be a gd choice...belgian choc ice-blended and spicy curry puff was the last dinner of '08 hahaha...was at the beach from last year yes Jas? hahaha...trip home was long and dull...so dull tht im not sleepy...hahaha LOL...walao! so 'early' blogging already...(inside joke heheheAnyways...happy new year to all...hope that '09 will be more fruitful and fulfilling than '08...and to the one I <3...happy new year to you...I love you...:)

Mr Independent...

- Signing Out -

1...2...3...

2008-12-24T00:54:00.002+08:00

1 thing...
2 do...
3 words...
4 you...
I Love You... :)

Maafkan bila ku tak sempurna...
Cinta ini tak mungkin kucegah...
Ayat-ayat cinta ini kan cerita...
Cintaku padamu...

2008-12-20T02:17:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna close my eyes...

I don't wanna fall asleep...

Cause I'd miss you, babe...

And I don't wanna miss a thing...

Cause even when I dream of you...

The sweetest dream will never do...

I'd still miss you, babe...

And I don't wanna miss a thing...

Honestly...

2008-12-19T00:27:00.001+08:00

This is what happened at work today...

Me: Hi ma'am can i take your order?

Lady: Oh yes, (lists the main course she wants)

Lady: What drinks would you recommend?

Me: Oh our bestsellers are the frosty lemontea and the green apple kasturi...

Lady: Hmmm..whats in your frosty lemon tea?

Me: (puzzled) Its lemon tea blended with ice maám...

Lady: Is it cold?

Me: (even more puzzled) Yes maám its blended with ICE...

Lady: Oh icic...ok i'll have your frosty ice lemon tea then..

Me: (relieved) ok..is that all maám?

Lady: Yes.

Me: (repeats order) ...and one frosty lemon tea...

Lady: Nonono...i wanted the frosty ice lemon tea...the cold one...

Me: (confused) yes maám the cold one...

Lady: Thank you...

Me: you're welcome maám

Lady: Remember, i want the cold frosty lemon tea...

Me: Yes maám...(walks away feeling utterly bewildered)

2008-12-16T22:48:00.000+08:00

12 Days till you're back...

Waiting...

Screw Barney!!!

2008-12-12T01:14:00.002+08:00

I hate him...

You hate him...

So let's all go and kill Barney...

Get a Shot-gun pull the trigger..

Barney on the floor...

No more Purple Dinosaur!!!!

YAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

Class Chalet

2008-12-04T22:52:00.002+08:00

Lalala...I'm at downtown east now...seriously...believe it or not...hahaha...i love the wireless age...things are rather mundane now...half of us are sleeping..the other half watching tv...lol...spent most of my time with wallace xunhui and jasmin..went walking at night...watched the sunrise and sunset tdy...went to wild wild wet too!! I super love the slide up!! Orgasmic please!!! Ular-lah ride was fun too...but most of the time was busy pushing the jasmin(e)s thru the shiok river and wave pool...finally feel relaxed and able to let go after a loong looong year...LOL...but sadly jy had to leave early in the morning...nottt funnn :( oh well...cnt have evrything in life...till my next post...

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

SECRET RECIPEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah...I so love my job...waiter cum barista at secret recipe!!! Best-ness please...i have fun managers...cool customers...and hottest colleagues...i wont name thm here...but naquiya...you know whos the hottest of thm all... :D _ _ _!!!! hahaha...now thts wht i call a job...so if anyone wants drinks...come down to secret recipe plaza singapura...Ruzaini Syazwan at your service... :D

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

Melancholic Me

2008-12-01T00:37:00.002+08:00

1st of December...last month of the year...had soccer ytd with Mr Koh's team...lost...2-1..could've won 3-2 but 2 shots hit the post...pretty torn up...physically, emotionally and mentally...

Physically: Couple of late tackles and a popped shoulder...didnt expect such a physical game after so long having not played...playing in defensive midfield is insane...had a better game in central defense...stopped a couple of shots with my feet, knees, stomach and back...the bicycle kicks still there though...though I hit the bar with tht shot..sustained a couple of stud marks on my thigh and back...and landed weirdly on my shoulder...oh well...

Emotionally: Been feeling down and out for the past couple of days...don't know why...no mood to go out...no mood to train...no mood to play...no mood to text friends...you get the picture...tried txting her but no reply...oh well who cares...I'm not into her anyways...at least i think soo...i cnt luh...its way too risky...later kena ignore again...(learnt my lesson) LOL

Mentally: Mostly cos i don't know why I'm so dead...and I'm trying to find out...also cos of the previous job's pressures that got to me...whatever it is...I know I'm not myself and I have no idea what's causing it...honestly...I feel totally brain dead...i cnt think of new stuff to do...no new jokes..no new stupid stuffs...gah...kashdfgnsdfgbo...LOL

Oh well...nothing else to blog abt...if anyone who reads this cn help me pls txt me or post your suggestions on my tagboard..thanks peepz...

Syazwan

- Getting My Ass Outta Here -

New Place..new start

2008-11-28T17:40:00.002+08:00

ok...quit V.E Grp today...its horrible...no basic pay...no lunch hour...crazy...will be starting at Secret Recipe (Plaza Singapura) on tuesday...need to go for my typhoid jab...scary..bt no...me no scared...me big boy...(NOT LITTLE BOY UH SMARYYY!!!) oh well...headache still persisting...soccer tmr morning against mr koh's team...must win please!!! Will be skipper playing in defensive midfield slot...excitedddd...hahahaha...nth else to crap abt...oh well...till my next post...

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

Tired, Stressed, Pissed

2008-11-28T00:03:00.002+08:00

CHEEBYE BODOH!!! WORK SUCKS!!! BLOODY HEADACHE!!!! SUIT AND TIE MY BACKSIDE LAH!!!! KANINNA!!!!

Ok tht felt good...argh...tired bt cnt slp..my head's splitting apart pls...must sing the smallville song..."Somebody saaavvvve meeeee!!!!" Smallville? Thts like a million years ago...hahaha oh crap...i wanna slp...somebody hit me with a hammer please...bleargh...

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

Back...

2008-11-24T01:21:00.004+08:00

hey all...back frm KL a few hours ago...but im nt gonna blog abt tht...soo...well last mon-wed had camp wid my fellow SHOUT leaders...it was a bloody retarded camp pls...no running no push ups no this no that...might as wellstuff thm up and turn thm into butter factories...LOL...gross-ness..on the other hand...it was great fun cos my SHOUT leaders were - as usual - the hyper bunch of monkeys we were born to be...yin teng had a mad obsession with HSM songs...while the rest...well the rest were just quirky luh...we had macs on the first night...super retarded pls...and we tortured qitian with endless renditions of the song "fabulous"frm HSM 2 hahaha now the song s stuck in her head...HURRAH!! hahaha...2nd night nt vr nice though...little beatrice fell while playing touch rugby...partially my fault...poor dear cried for hours...mind you it wasnt a minor fall...but i have to say...she really looked adorable even whn she was crying...in the end had to bring her to TTSH...the hero as usual had to walk there while the teachers qitian and beatrice cab-ed there...it was nehnehpok scary pls...nth but trees all ard me...in the end beats had to go hme...she was pissed bt truthfully...it was the best thing to do...anw get well soon dearie...i'll check on you tmr morning hahahaha...well wht else...nth much luh...thurs and fri just stayed hme and retarded ard...oh yeah...starting work on wednesday...suit and tie ppl dun play play uh...hahaha okok...nth else to bull-dung abt...till next time...

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

Brick Wall...

2008-11-15T00:06:00.003+08:00

Ok...the post O level vacation started on the worst note possible...our camp was blown to bits...major misinterpretation of the proposal was uncalled for...damn...i don't even know what to say...one thing's for sure...i wish the O's were still on...yes..that's how fucked up it is...ok...it was plainly my fault...over-ambitious? I don't know...but i overlooked a hell lot of procedures which i didnt even know existed!! Which explains why i overlooked it in the first place...but..i could have avoided this if i had taken the advice of the shout members...damn...the feeling's horrible...well...i guess i gotta start over...from scratch...apologies to my SHOUT committee members for all the hard work thts gone to waste...my bet guys...i understand if u guys blame me...and i take full responsibility for making us crash into this brick wall...so yeah...if u guys gonna kill me...i totally understand...till next time...

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

2008-11-12T22:23:00.002+08:00

Oh yeah...team SJI All Stars are having a reunion...and guess who's the opposition? None other than BHS!!! Hmm...honestly..i dono hows it gonna turn out...its been long since we played together...hopefully we still have the understanding...yet to be beaten though our team...hahahaha...and i'm not very eager for it to happen...so...anyway...here's the starting lineup for anyone who's interested... :)

GK-Chien Ming

RB-Nige

RCB-Bo Yang

LCB-Hilmi

LB-Rahim

CDM-Ruzaini Syazwan (C)

RWM-Brandon

LWM-Leslie

CAM-Rudy

RF-Nicholas (VC)

LF-Hahn

Hmmm...

2008-11-11T15:00:00.003+08:00

If the plural of "Goose"is "Geese"...

Is the plural of "Moose" "Meese"?

And if that's the case...

Is "Cheese" The plural of "Choose"?

Hmmmm...go figure...

My Saviour...

2008-11-10T14:41:00.002+08:00

Back to being myself now...after going so close to to the edge...I found a lifeline...or rather...my lifeline found me... "Don't just in case me, just in case me! You'll watch me grow up and you'll be there when I need you. So don't just in case me!" she said...simple...but brought me back to my senses...so I'm chucking the knife...and I'm coming back...Ilyas...if you're reading this...you better go get yourself insurance boy...cos tonight...I'm turning the tables onto you...I've been keeping quiet and letting you have your way...but after I get you...trust me...you don't wanna know what's in store my friend...you wanna get your guys? That's up to you...won't make much of a difference though...you've seen what I've done when I WAS on your side...you didnt give me back my life...so I'm taking it back...by force...ok...enough about assholes...that's all for now...oh one more thing...I'M BACK.

To my saviour (You know who you are)> Thanks for pulling me back...and yes...I'll be watching you grow up to be a strong and beautiful person...and I'll always be there whenever you need me...Loves... :)

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

Choices...

2008-11-09T19:29:00.003+08:00

Another has passed...labouring through the never-ending thoughts invading my mind...trying hard to detach myself from distractions..from the past...just as I thought that I've left it all behind...just as I thought I've started life anew...the past catches up with me...threatening to swallow...to engulf all that I've worked towards...ever felt like you're being thrown into the deep end of the pool with bricks tied to your feet? That's how i feel...the more I run..the more I struggle...the deeper I sink...the more water I swallow...its not for the lack of trying...I've left all the old habits...the old acquaintances...the old vices...but as they say...evreything has its consequences...some call it repercussions...others say it's karma...well...I'm sick of this karma...i made mistakes...I've faced the consequences..but if people judge...then whats the point of repenting?'I've reached the point where barely anything matters...pain is replaced by numbness...disappointment is replaced by indifference...I'm thinking...enough is enough...but the world hasn't had enough...hasn't had enough of me...I'm not a muffin out of which everyone can take a bite of...yes..I've flawed...but not so much so that my feelings are nonexistent...to some..seeing the back of me might bring happiness...satisfaction even...to others...it might bring tears...to those...I apologize...under the hard cheerful exterior...is a volatile...uncertain interior...but it's all ending soon...

Will this be my last post?

We'll see...

Suicide

2008-11-08T00:10:00.003+08:00

Hey all...wait...before i carry on...I'd like to say that...this post takes a more serious tone...ok...let's cut to the chase...well...to anyone who's reading this...have you ever thought about suicide? Well not necessarily commiting it...but you know...just thought about it..have you ever thought of how it would feel like when you know its your last moments alive? Or maybe exactly how you're going to end it...would you jump off a building? Or would you be hanging from the ceiling? Would you just pop a couple of pills? Or slit your wrists and watch life flowing out of you? Some of you out there might have...others probably not..but then again..what exactly will it take to drive you to make such a drastic decision? I'm not sure of all the reasons but I know of one...have you ever felt broken? Torn apart? Putting in every ounce of your sweat and blood into doing what you're doing...and yet...you keep running into walls...walls that mock you...walls that drain you of all the fight that you have (or had) in you...have you ever felt like you cared so much but you still get thrown aside...have you ever heard the sound of glass breaking? Only to realise that whats breaking is not glass but your heart? Maybe you have...probably not..but would all that drive you to the edge? Or over the edge? Will ending it be cowardly? Or would save yourself from further misery? And what happens after that? Will the problems follow you? Or will it stay behind to haunt others? Death...the end? Or a beginning? Is it something to look forward to...or is it best waited for? Suicide..cowardice? Or intelligence? Is it as bad as it looks? Or would it be a better option?

Suicide...

Never thought of it?

Maybe you should...

Cos I did...

Forget You....

2008-11-06T01:10:00.002+08:00

05/11/2008

Sure..I was excited...

Everyone texted me...

Wished me...

I waited the entire day...

Thinking..hoping that you would be next...

It never came...

Call me stupid..

But I actually waited till 05/11/08 changed to 06/11/08...

It never came...

I wasn't expecting anything big...

Not a present...

Not a handshake even...

All I wanted...

Was to hear the two precious words from you...

Or a text message maybe...

It never came...

Now I realise...

That I've been wasting my time...

Wasting too much a dime...

Somehow...

I have this strong urge to thank you...

For waking me up...

From my irrational illusions...

Delusions...

Now...

I'm smarter...

Thanks to you...

I'm clearer...

On where I stand...

The past will remain as it is;

The past...

Cos now...

I'm leaving you behind...

Though you left me rueing what could have been...

You made me understand how life treats its patrons...

Never again will I fall...

For you have taught me not to...

For now...

It's goodbye...

But not before..

I say Thank You...

For without you...

I would still be dreaming of a fairytale

Where I was the Prince...

And you were my Princess...

Finally...

It is now truly...

Mr Independent...

- Signing Out -

THANKS MOOOOOMMMMM!!!!!!!!

2008-11-03T10:21:00.007+08:00

Whoaa!!! Advance birthday present from Momsy...Best ever lah seh!!! For the past 17 years!!! Love you Moooooommmmm!!!!!

2008-10-31T22:57:00.002+08:00

If one day God came and offered me either...
1. A bank acccount with an endless cash limit

2.A hawt Ferrari which never runs out of fuel

3.A mansion which has a lake in its backyard

4.A chef who can cook me anything I wanted at the blink of an eye

You...

I'd choose YOU... :)

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

2008-10-31T08:16:00.004+08:00

Be my Juliet and you'll never have to be alone...

I love you and tht's all I really know...

I'll go down to my knees if I have to...

Insomniiaaaacccc.....

2008-10-30T00:39:00.003+08:00

hey ppl...feeling rather annoyed here...I was supposed to sleep early tonight cos of an early paper tmr...falling asleep was already difficult...then..after finally falling aslp...I just had to dream about her again...third night in a row...and now i can't sleep...which explains why I'm blogging at such an unearthly hour...gaaahhh...bloody hell....physics was horribly fucked up....feel like I'd run into a brick wall...oh well...I should stop bitching...like a girl...hahahaha...haizzz...i can't text my little baby anymoooorre...top up soon yeah...miss talking to ya...(its only been a day)lol...anyway...was thinking of a birthday wish...here's one that crossed my mind...

1. My birthday wish is to have your hands in mine this time next year...

Geez...cheesy much...man...really got to rein in this obsession...oh well...annoying...yet...adorable...glad you like the bag...

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

Thanks Naquiyaaaaa!!!!!!

2008-10-27T04:12:00.001+08:00

WHHHHOOOOAAAA!!!!!!!

The wonderful title banner was done for me by Naquiyaaa!!!! YEEEHAAAA!!!! I looovvvveee yyyoooouuuu Naquiyaaaaaa!!!!! You're the bomb!!

Owe you one dearie!!!

Mr Independent

- Signing Out -

Syazwan <3 Selena Gomez

2008-10-25T18:16:00.002+08:00

Check This Out.. :D

2008-10-22T15:59:00.006+08:00

Hey there...I was kinda bored after studying so sorta "composed" this song...I adapted it from Miley Cyrus' song "See You Again".. if you've never heard the song before, its playing in the background... :)

You got me thinking of,

Cheesy pickup lines...

I think you're really mean cos,

You keep messing my mind..

I try to focus on my work,

But I keep seeing your face...

Now I can't help,

But miss you again...

You've got a special way of,

Catching my eye...

You must be that little devil who,

Keeps messing my life...

Cos I feel this crazy tension,

Everytime you're in sight...

_______, please, get outta my mind...

_______please don't freak out...

You're all I think about,

My heart flu-flutters and,

I can't even make a sound...

When you sit next to me,

I turn into jelly..

All my friends are saying

Syazwan's going crazy...

Each time our clique hangs out,

I hope that you turn up..

Can't help but fall deeper in..

Whoa..Whoa..

I'm..I'm in love...

With a girl named _______...

Well the blanks...some might know what to fill it with...for those who don't...use your imaginations... :D

Mr Independent

-Signing Out-

Behind Masks

2008-10-22T07:30:00.001+08:00

Why did I let myself believe

Miracles could happen

Cause now I have to pretend

That I don't really care...

Memories

2008-10-18T21:10:00.002+08:00

Haaaaiiii....one week of study break and I'm missing school...I don't know why...I don't usually miss school during the holidays...but this time..I actually miss the daily routines...getting up at 5am...taking the bus...the pre-assembly crapping with the ChickenBananas and Seri and Afiq and stuff...i miss annoying my teachers...making the class laugh...and cracking perverse jokes in Mr Koh's lessons...I miss the P.E lessons...playing touch rugby with Jasmine Pearlyn Xunhui Keenan Arnold etc...hahaha...*sigh*...oh yeah...who can forget the after school escapades? The mcdonald's tables...Keenan's place playing guitar hero & bridge...oh and yes...I'm still terrified of his dog...not forgetting Square 2 and Novena Square...the frequent visits to Yami Yoghurt...just to chew spoons (you know who you are) and the unmissable(is there such a word?) visits to LJS...mixing their mayo, cheese and chilli sauce into the coke...oh yeah...i remember the visit to pizza hut at U.S! Daring each other to drink HORRIBLE concoctions of only God remembers what...haiz...to think that these things which were very much part of my daily life may never, or maybe rarely ever happen again...hopefully we'll remain as close as this even after secondary school life...oh well...time to look ahead and prepare for the future!

Mr Independent

-Signing Out-

P.S: BUTTRAWKZZZ!!!!

Skyway Avenue...or any other avenue for that matter...

2008-10-17T09:42:00.002+08:00

'Cause if you jump I will jump too

We will fall together

From the building's ledge

Never looking back at what we've done

We'll say it was love

'Cause I would die for you

On skyway avenue...

Atika and Naquiya

2008-10-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hello all...today's post will be focused on 2 very beautiful girls i know...I think i should mention them to avoid being called a hairy fruit...so okay...in no particular order...Atika first...hmm...Atika is my friend (LIKE DUH!!) whose in sec 2...going on to sec 3...shes very cute...mainly cos she's prone to panic attacks and cos well...cos shes small...she's a really good friend and I can tell her anything without feeling embarassed...oh...she's also very very sweet cos she gave me two very delicious slices of her wonderful birthday cake...(I can still taste it)...haha..yay...I love Atika...hahaha...okay...now i shall mention Naquiya...Naquiya"s my 2nd friend in Balestier Hill Sec (Has was the first)...I remember her as the girl with the braces...and I can recall very clearly tht the first time i saw her in school was during her recess...and I was sitting on the table outside the bookshop...ok well she saw me...not I saw her...Naquiya's really helpful cos she never tires of helping me sort out my girl-related issues...she's always giving me great advice and she doesnt think that I'm an idiot...however...the sad thing is...she's overseas and I can only talk to her online...*sob sob*...well ok...I've mentioned already...so no more hairy banana business alright?

LoVeS

-Syazwan-